just chill

with the coming of 2012 comes greater responsibilities which in other words means more workload, crazier time limits etc etc. seriously i'm not the only one facing this. and i'm not sure whether i like it or not. yes i like it coz it appears the management have put more trust in me which still makes me wonder but then the workload that should've been for a senior is put on my weak shoulders which is making me stagger even at the start of the year. hmm..the thing is my firm is really lacking on the senior audit staffs hence us the (semi) weaklings are pressed to do a senior's work which is not fair for us since we are paid lower. yes there was a salary increment but still doesn't compensate what we are expected to achieve. and yet i'm still swimming (more like drowning) in the firm. but fret not i'm still happy :) but please check on me in say 2 months time? heh

at least now i have my personal reminder and organic alarm clock. ngeh2 it's an inside joke that only i understand which makes no sense when i'm sharing it in here. watever. i think i've become sloppier each day and i no more care what i look like hence the sloppy image. i don't know. i guess when you're too sleepy/tired you don't really care how the world goes on as long as the day finishes off quickly so that you can crawl back to your bed without dreaming. man i don't know when was the last time i had a dream. each time i would doze off to sleep less than a minute and wake up suddenly realizing i missed the midnight work shift. then i'll go cursing under the breath coz i forgot to set the alarm or i didn't hear the alarm. i think if this routine goes on i can easily get a heart attack. oh wait have i mentioned this before? annnd to top things up i'm getting rounder at the tummy. to think that i usually reach home and head straight to bed without considering my dinner almost err the whole week days? hmm

i seriously need a vacation. oh wait i just had one last december but that doesn't count. but i did enjoy universal studios!! next target: disneyland oh wait that's suppose to be my dream honeymoon destination. ngeh ngeh. anyways i can't wait for this may trip. 4 more months baby! but in that 4 months i'm not sure whether i would still be in the firm. i've been contemplating to leave for at least once a week. heh.. that bad eyh

i hope everybody is having a blast enjoying this long weekend. i especially enjoyed our balek kampong trip where i managed to stuff my tummy with durians :) happy. oh gosh i miss my mom's cooking. i can count on how many times i had a proper meal since last november. but at least eldest sis is really making an effort. she should get married and have babies coz she has all the qualities (not like somebody i know ie me). heh

luckily so far i've been getting nice clients. well i don't know whether they talk behind my back or not but so far all of them have been treating me nicely. i think it really helps if you think positively about people. there was once when i had a bitchy/mood swing kakak but then after a while i just followed her pace and we got along quite well after that. she even cracked jokes with me but at the time i wasn't sure about her intention since she was bitchy before that but then i just laughed it off as usual ( i usually do that even if a joke is not funny or when i don't understand a joke). hmm

oh i forgot to say since it's the long holiday and all people would look forward to spend the days by making plans and whatnots but not yours truly. i'm still stuck with work coz i need to meet the deadline by this wednesday. well actually it's supposed to be last friday but dc (my audit principal) was kind enough to let me have till next friday. however since i'll be going to a new client next thursday so there goes my 2 extra days. hmm