after dawn

raya is just around the corner and i must say that my spirit for the hari raya is a lil bit more that the usual,even if i have lesser things now. heh. i'm still wondering the reason but that's the fact. i think i've put more effort to be nicer for this ramadhan than ever before, still i don't know why. maturity perhaps? this is because i've encountered with several events during the month which i think kinda upset/hurt me but like what my friend A said, be a better person. it doesn't mean that a person treated you badly, you should return the favor. plus every time when i feel like criticizing somebody (dalam hati jela), i'd stop myself from going further. clap clap. that's an achievement for me. let's just hope that this practice will continue even after the ramadhan.

next month marks as a year of slavery for me at the firm. honestly i can't wait to leave the firm. not because i cannot stand the workload but because of the management. i seriously think that we are all being overutilized without getting the proper compensation. i keep telling the rest and they agreed but that's just about that. nobody made any attempt to leave the firm. well then i promised myself that this situation is not going on forever for me, but then i'll have to wait after december. just because.

other than that, my life is still the same. stagnant. still always broke. the phrase kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang suits me very well. but then i know, we should always be thankful to God for all the rezeki he has given us (see? sign of maturity much?). unfortunately it is not my rezeki to graduate this time around, and i wonder when but i always tell myself and my closed friends, belum ade rezeki lah tu. hmm

oops before i forget, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!! MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

forgive and forget people. forgive and forget..

ps: i think it's lame when you joke about the BATIN part..