why am i still here?

i woke up today realising that there's only 3 days left before my final exam. yup this auditor still can't pass her audit paper. funny isn't it?

anyways the reason why i'm blogging at this moment when i know well enough that i should be glued to my books is because i'm waiting for my colleague to pass me the review points for the file that i sent last tuesday. he's following it up for me but i still need to coordinate some things to him. so yeah. dedicated you say? not at all. i'm just doing this so that they won't say that i'm a lazy bump (even if i know that that's true) because i have a feeling that some of them already think that i am. well sod it off. i'll think about that some other day.

now where's that damn email? anyways i really don't know how to feel about this coming paper. i can't say that i'm nervous since i'm taking this paper for the upteenth time. i just want to get over with it and i mean literally.

it's really frustrating when somebody bugs you about work when you're on leave. especially when it's your study leave. and especially when you thought that you'd escaped from your shitty work for just a second. i seriously can't wait to leave the company. when i told people that i'm planning to leave (i think i told quite a bunch) most of them were shocked since in their mind i seemed to be enjoying myself. well all i can say is that i'm a complex person. i may seem simple but are you really sure about that? heh. i don't know. whatevs. by the way that's my current favorite word. WHATEVS.

so okay. enough ranting. chop chop. got to continue studying. btw i think one of the principal hates me. and i mean literally. well to be fair, the feeling is mutual. i somehow think that he's a little racist though i seem to be the only one who sees that. i don't know. but i have a hunch that it's true. and because i am what i am, he always underestimate me. treats me like a moron. but the thing that really pisses me is that i didn't make an effort to prove him wrong. well actually i tried but so far to no avail. he always has something on me. damn. another good reason to leave.

please please please let this be the last time for me to enter the hall. i'm tired of being stuck in second gear.